Thoughts and Confessions of a Pasha

Date: 10th August 2007         Time: 22:32         Weather/Mood: Chilly but bearable, happy!

Just singing at the moment! Don’t mind me lol I’ve working A LOT lately, hence the no writing, aaannd tomorrow I’m going to the Isle of Wight until Wednesday. Should be fun! And Thursday means I get my AS level results, woop!!!

I went to the Circus yesterday! It was amaaazzziiinggg! And they done the whole shooting an apple on top of someone’s head trick, and he gave ME the apple! Not anyone else, ME!!! =] Swish! lol 

Anyhoo, you know, I haven’t actually packed for tomorrow yet, which is really bad. I had better go do that. There isn’t much for me to write anyways I’m afraid coz nothing has happened.

Ciao!!!

x*x*x

Date: 2nd August 2007          Time:22:05          Weather/Mood: Suprisingly warm. Good!

Whoah, its August, and its only just started getting warmer!!! I thought the world was turning into Narnia and it was going to be winter forever! Still, glad ‘Elio the Sun God’ has actually done some work – we have warmth at last!! *rejoices*

So, what have I been upto these past few days? Sunday and Monday I was working, and on Monday I discovered the good weather can make people turn into monsters! Not literally, obviously, but I got a helluva lot of customers in a bad mood. Maybe its coz the kids are off school? Who knows?! Although, recent research has shown warmer weather leads to higher suicide rates. How depressing! Apparently, suicide rates rise dramatically once temperatures reach 18c. And then, it rises by about 4% I think, every degree after that (I can’t remember exact figures). They put it down to ‘higher irritability’ or something. Suprising a? Anyhoo, Tuesday was good too. Went bowling, but really hurt my ankle I hit the inside of it on a metal pole – very painful! But Im okayish now!

Oo, I went to London yesterday! Was very fun, went round Camden with a couple of mates and met a couple more up there. We then moved onto Oxford Circus after a good look round for spray paint (not for me might I add!) and t-shirts. When in Oxford Circus sitting out the front of ‘The Plaza’, me and two mates got approached by a random guy asking for a cigarette. Did he ask for one like anyone normal would? No. No disrespect to black people (I love you all!) but he was doing the stereotypical ‘black’ person greeting (or maybe its just a guy thing?), but the funny handshake-cross-high-five thing and proceeded to kiss my hand. He then noticed ‘Friend A’ was wearing a top which said ‘Animal’ and laughed and congulated him on being a (and I quote) “dawg”. At this point we were confused about why he approached us (I diiid have a sneaky suspicion). Finally he asked for a cigarette and lit it, and asked ‘Friend B’ to hold it while he went in a shop. Why light it if you’re going into a shop?! Now I don’t know, but surely thats a waste of the beginning of the cigarette. Eventually he did come back and did the handshake blah and kissed my hand yet again. Strange experience… Still, I came home with a few goodies! =] Two CDs (One I was given, and its quite good actually!), 4 DVDs (coming to a total of £18 - not bad!) and a couple of things from Lush.  

Saw The Simpsons Movie today, was quite funny actually! Considering I’m not fussed with The Simpsons (I prefer Futurama!), I still giggled quite a bit!

Anyways, I had better go, I gotta get up early for work tomorrow. And Saturday. And Sunday. Lucky me!

Night!

x*x*x

Date: 28th July 2007        Time: 23:27         Weather/Mood: Rainy. Needing the loo!

I’ll have to be quick, because I’m dying for a wee. I’m sure you all wanted to know that, but hey, I thought I’d explain myself.

Basically, my cousin went home this morning, hence why I didn’t write yesterday, was playing games and shizzle. Today, not a lot happened, was looking for a new microwave and furniture for my bedroom.

I have to work tomorrow *cries*. I could be finishing Harry Potter! No, I haven’t read it all yet, because I’ve been doing more sociable things *shock* *horror*. I love reading though, and its sooo hard to put a good book down. Evidently, it would seem Harry Potter is one of these.

Another rubbish thing, I’m ill I think I have some sort of virus because I’m all achy and tired all the time. I feel I’m complaining, but heeey, it hurrrtttsss!!!

Anyhoo, must dash to relieve myself!

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Date: 26th July 2007         Time: 23:10         Weather/Mood: Miserable weather. Achy

Sorry haven’t posted the past couple of days! Been a bit busy! Went into Brighton, shopping on Tuesday. I bought a big stripey monkey to keep me company in my car =] swish! I’ve called him Charlie. I think… I’m still a little undecided. Anyways, the gig I was going to go to was cancelled, so I cried and died a little inside… Metaphorically speaking of course! I did go out though. Met up with a friend and stayed out til late. By late, I mean around half 12ish, so not total rebel. Theeen on Wednesday (yesterday), I went bowling with another friend and my cousin. Woo! I won! I scored 91! That’s a record for me I’m sure. Im terrible at bowling! After that, we had two and a half games of American pool. I say a half, coz we gave up! It was pretty fair though, I won the first one, friend won the second. Went out for a meal in the evening to celebrate a birthday (not mine!). Was fun! =]

I think I’ve brought you all up-to-date now, except for today. We went into Tonbridge and the Wells. I bought some things for my new room, I’ve decided to redecorate! Anyhoo, I had better be off now, someone else wants to steal, I mean use, the computer.

Adios!

x*x*x

Okay, here’s my first confession to y’all.

Why can guys hold your feelings in the palm of their hand and decide their fate? I hate it that one person out of all the people in the world can ruin everything. I’ve been hurt by many guys, and I’m sure I’m not the first, but we shouldn’t allow other people to affect us so. I know it’s practically impossible to stop it, believe me, I’ve tried, and failed miserably. And even though I think this, I am still sitting here, getting hurt by the mere presence of a particular person on my messenger. How can this be?!

On the upside, the fact that one person can affect you so much can be good. It’s just a shame that for every bad one, you need about ten good ones to counteract and balance your feelings again. And still you get that little voice in the back of your head taunting you. It doesn’t seem fair.

 Please stop hurting me…

Date: 23rd July 2007         Time: 23:37         Weather/Mood: Rainy. Okay.

Today I woke up. Well, I tried to. And then I fell back to sleep again. See, that’s the problem with this sort of weather, it just makes you feel so down. Raining all the time. Where’s the sun gone?!

Didn’t do a lot today. Went furniture shopping. Well, by that I mean we had a look at some bedroom furniture. I want to change my room, I’m thinking chocolate and cream, just because it involves the words ‘chocolate’ and ‘cream’. What do you think? I’ve found some nice furniture, but it doesn’t have everything I want. Sod’s Law I think thats called.

I might not be able to post tomorrow, I’ll be at a gig until the early hours of the next morning. It’s just local bands, but should be good! I’ll let you know how it was when I write next.

G’night!

x*x*x

Date: 22nd July 2007         Time: 23:28         Weather/Mood: Mild, tired.

Well, what a ’meh’ day. I had to work today, which wouldn’t be too bad, except I got some awkward customers. Firstly, to those of you who don’t know, I work in a zoo. To be more precise, I work on the admissions gate, so I let people in basically. This can be annoying, because you get the unreasonable customers, the ones that don’t listen etc. However, I can usually put up with those. You get used to those generally. Except the ones that pick on you. I had a woman the other day say I’m rubbish at my job just because I had to get help from a manager Anyways, today I got several people trying to blag their way in for free or half price. The cheek! As if I’m just going to let them in without paying anything just because they asked?!

Anyways, apart from that, I went out for a random walk and sat out in a light bit of rain – very refreshing. I’m home now, and I’m shackered! I know its bad and I shouldn’t be, but I got up early. Well, that’s my excuse anyway.

Aaand because of this, I am going to bed!

Good night all!

x*x*x

Date: 21st/22nd July 2007         Time: 00:03         Weather/Mood: Dark Tired and a little freaked out.

My 2nd cousin arrived this morning – not that long after I had wandered downstairs in search of a bite to eat and some reason to actually open my eyes. She’s a little quiet, but I’m guessing that’s nerves on not seeing us for aaaages and such. She’s got taaalll dammit! Why do I have to always be the little one?!

I thought I’d be a good cousin and so I took her into Eastbourne for a game of mini-golf and an ice cream. Theeeen we walked into the town, got a drink, and had a quick gander at some of the shops. Boots was fun, we spritzed the perfumes and sampled the make-up =] I now have glitzy eyes! Not really like me, but hey, a change is good once in a while!

Wheeen we reached the place that is home, we had an indoor barbeque and then I drove into Polegate to my auntie’s place for desserts and games! And that kinda brings us up until now. Except for the driving home part. Now that was strange. Half way home lots of little pinkish lights flew across the sky. The size of the North Star, and the brightness of it. There were lots, all in a kind of formation, and you couldn’t take your eyes off them. They were soooo distracting! And drivers were stopping all over the place to look at them, at junctions, even on roundabouts!

Stiillll, I have work tomorrow, so I had better go off and get some zeds!

x*x*x

P.S. Ooo! I nearly forgot! I got the new Harry Potter book today!! Wheeeee!!!!

Date: 20th July 2007         Time: 23:25         Weather/Mood: Windy, Mixed emotions.

My sister went home earlier on. We had a nice chat actually. She was her old self again. I think I like her again. Well, obviously I always loved her, but you know what I mean. It’s her birthday soon. Ill have to buy her something. No idea what though. She’s quite different to me. Still, we shall see, a? On the family note, my 2nd cousin is coming down tomorrow. Two years younger than me and I haven’t got a clue what I’m supposed to do with her for a week. I’m secretly hoping work has scheduled me to work all week - not because I don’t want to see her, but because I’m guessing it’s going to be a little awkward!

Today.. what did I do today?!?! Oh yes! I nearly died! Went out in a mates car and bloody hell, speeding along, music blaring, chasing buses and other scary stuff – e.g. we went along with the engine turned off. Yes people! I survived the driving of a fellow ‘Hailshamer’! I think I deserve a medal! Besides that, I saw another mate as well. We watched ‘Orange County’ whilst I was falling asleep. I don’t know what it is at his house, but I always seem to ‘nod off’ when I’m round there! And now I’m sitting here, infront of my cluttered desk (which apparently means I’m creative), writing this. Hmm.. interesting eh?

So, another day in my not-very-exciting-life, but you never know. I could come in one day and tell you about my plot to take over McDonalds, or how I was nearly captured by aliens, or how I saved a whole airport from being blown up. Buuut I doubt it.

x*x*x

Date: 19th/20th July 2007         Time: 00:07         Weather/Mood: Stormy. Happy and Scared

 Thunder and lightning. Hate it. I don’t mind if its ages away in the distance and I’m looking at it from a safe place. They’re beautiful then. I hate it when I’m involved in it, when it’s on my doorstep, when it’s there, ready to pounce. It never has pounced.. yet. That’s what scares me.

Saw Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix today, like I said I was going to. Amazing film! I’m quite impressed =] Far from my favourite ever film, but still, it means 138 minutes of my life wasn’t wasted. After the film, went for a walk and had a meal at the Harvester on the harbour. Nice-ish. I usually like Harvesters, but this let the side down. Undercooked potatoes! Don’t you just hate it when they crunch like carrots?! *shudders*

Came home to find my sister is here, albeit asleep in a bed upstairs. But still, she’s here! Is this good or bad? I’m still annoyed at her, several reasons, which I may confess to you at a later date, but I don’t want to paint a biased picture of the so wonderful, loving sister of mine. Correction : half sister.

Oh, it’s so hard to concentrate with this rumbling in the background – not my stomach this time! (surprisingly) Will have more news tomorrow, it should be an interesting day if all that’s supposed to happen does. If not, well, I guess there won’t be as much to write about!

Sleep well my lovelies!

x*x*x